After a lot of heartache and mourning of my marriage, lost friendships and losing myself somewhere along the way..After many sleepless nights, crying, throwing things, burning pictures, more crying and praying... I've finally figured out that I AM OKAY. I can do it on my own without someone else. Without someone laying beside me every night. And it's okay to be single and making your own way. So, i've conquered most of my fears. I learned my ex husband was not the only man out there.. and damn sure not even close to one of the good ones. I've met some amazing people. Very good men. Most with no connection whatsoever, but it helped me "see" the light.. sort of speak.
It's amazing how you can change into someone you never thought you could be. From a very shattered, lost and confused person to a strong, independent woman with confidence and a little fire in her. I don't miss the shattered and lonely woman I saw in the mirror for so long. For a long time I couldn't recognize the reflection looking back at me. Now, although I still have things to work on, I'm happy and content with how far I have come because I know it's only going to get better from here. I'm looking for to the even better days.
I think I've realized more in the past 3 or 4 months how much I've changed with getting my own place and being able to stay here. No longer bouncing around